I took a journey through Thailand went to two different beaches and many different homes and met so many people from different parts of the world and still see that we all have the same common. We are all looking for love and peace in our lives, in our hearts, our homes, our countries and our world. I have been in two countries that are shooting at each other for the last couple of days at the baorder between Cambodia and Thailand for a temple that has already been destroy. It is not the temple that they are fighting for its the ego wanting to win, when i'm in Cambodia they blame Thailand when i'm in Thailand they blame Cambodia. It make no sense to me because they look the same and they all want the same thing. I tried to stay out of all conversation about war and love both side the same as they were my own brothers and sisters, they smile and think i'm crazy and i smile and said nothing. I have been encounter a lot of people on both side of the countries so kind and generous with me, it's not hard for me to love and continue sending them love when i think of them.

In Thailand it is not legal to see a begger on the street but in Cambodia i saw tons all ages...i have learn somthing that is a WIN WIN situation i wanted to share with all of you reading this. When someone beg me i asked if they are hungry all will say "yes" I ask them to sit and i buy them food instead of giving them money which we are not suppose to do for many reasons...but if you buy them food the vender makes a living, the begger get food in thier stomache, i get to smile and send their gratitude to all my friends and family that gave me money to help the people....This is working very well. I will send pictures when i have more time, i don't get to be around internet very often or a bathroom with toilet paper, another i'm far away from tourist places.

Hi all, while the playground is being built for the kids and my adoptive mother house is being remodel i took some time to go into Thailand for 10 days to spend some time on the beach. The funniest thing is i am spending time with Thai people they don't like to be in the sun or in the ocean water. For the last two days i was on a private beach for hours alone with my stepmother she is Thai but lives in LA and really appreciate the warm ocean water. Its always warm no matter what time you go in. So nice, i swam for hours at time. Right now i am getting ready to head out to another beach...last night i went out and celebrate their last day of new year which is our new year, christmas, birthday, and fourth of july all combine together. They celebrate for 3 days with lots of throwing water at each others and put this powder past on each other faces all over the street. Just think of New York city on new year's day but add TONS of water every where...I am sending you all love from Thailand.

It has been almost two weeks to my journey in Cambodia, eating weired food, eating ice which is a no no got really sick have to go to a doctor for the first time in years!!! The pollution is really bad in the city call Pusat i can bearly breath. My throat chest and head hurt but over all i am well and having a great time. The people are so amazing. They see life as is and always smilling and seems to be happy where ever they are, i'm learning a lot from them. I'm in Phnom Penn right now in the process of feeling better so i can go to Thailand for two weeks on sunday....but for now i am sending you all love and missing and thinking of all of you. Wishing you all can experience what i am experiencing.

Today is march 31, it’s been 4 nights away from home(US) one of the night I spent on Bowing 747 it was not the most comfortable of my 32 hours time. But I was glad that I’m a little person to be able to fit in the small seat, eating small meals but got smarter this time not drinking alcohol while I’m in the air. Running hard in between flights to catch 3 plane rides and carried carry on bags that was heavier then I was had given me a very sore body and two giant blisters on both of my feet. Now I am dealing with a little fever and sore throat, which I’m sure it is going to be an amazing trip as soon as I am feeling better. It is starting right now! I decided. The body needing much rest but the mind is a little confuse as to the different in day and night time zone.

I am in the city call Siem Reap right now where the temple of Angkor Wat and many other temples are( I will post pictures as soon as I have more time) will be here for another night. So far this trip had been really heart opening for me, between the hundreds of kids begging and selling things on the street and the small venders trying to make a dollar a day to feed their family, the tuk tuk drivers fighting to take you places... I want to help all of them but I know that I’m physically unable to help them all, so I smile and sending love and blessing.

Waiting to board a very LONG flight, 32 hours long. One hour of sleep, a month and a half of time to pack still waited for the last min to finish. Got to work on my procrastination. Fare well Denver see you in a month and a half.

The skeptic says, "I'll believe it when I see it."
The mystic says, "I'll see it when I believe it."
~♥~ Author Unknown

I have been told once or twice in my life that the journey in a happy life is only 18" inches long
Which is between my head to my heart....it has been a life long search for me to find tools to see where i am going. But is has been infront of me all along, my mind has a tool call "believe" and my heart has a tool call "feeling" together they seems to unlock any darkness that are lerking as a shadow to blind us from a happy and healthy life...I feel awake at this moment. Love, Helena